always coming home

by doctor millar and the beet club

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recorded and mixed by joe chester,produced by sean millar and joe,at sonic studios dublin.

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released January 1, 2002

all songs written and composed by sean millar ,all basses shane fitzsimons except rock to roll (bass joe), all drums paul cantwell except rock to roll (drums dave hingerty), all guitars sean and joe,all piano's and keys joe chester,all vocals sean and joe except: feel everything and love yourself,rock to roll,everyclown,(vocals miriam ingram,joe and sean) violin on rock to roll by larry o toole.

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seán millar Dublin, Ireland

Sean Millar is a singer,songwriter,composer ,poet and Theatre maker
"He is the poet laureate of Dublins dark side...an irish national treasure" The Irish Times
"Irelands greatest songwriter" Hotpress
"He remains Irelands best lyricist" RTE guide
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Track Name: doctor millar and the beet club - always coming home
well its 4 am all the lights are out as i begin tonights odyssey of guilt and doubt beside me my wife and my child are sleeping as I walk home the endless mile always coming home but never arriving i step off a train that I first stepped on in a dream in 1975 its like my mother says its much better to travel in hope than to arrive
Track Name: feel everything and love yourself
ive just got to find a way to get some sweet relief from all this pain and grief everyone i know is trying to survive but we could live feel everything and love yourself you dont have to take that job just because you feel to blame for how you lost the other one everyone i know etc she doesnt have to take that man just because she feels ashamed of how she lost the other one everyone i know etc
Track Name: everyclown
nothing works now its no good shes already in my blood and her love is like a dirty shame and ive got nothing left to say she offered me the easy way and i suppose i offered her the same thats why everyclown is sad the anger that i hide keeps coming back for more but its mine now and its paid for dont look at me like that dont act like youre so scared she comes on so vulnerable but she always comes prepared dont tell me to calm down ill shout if i want ill get us both thrown out of this restaurant thats why etc
Track Name: hard years in the big city
i owed money all over town felt like i could not leave the house without letting somebody down i just went out for something pretty for my wife you know it broke my heart to see her looking so low down those were hard years in the big city i just went out for something pretty for my wife hoping in the years to come we would both look back upon those hard years as the best years of our lives you know me i never did no one no harm but there i was out on the street dancing to keep warm i went in for some coffee just to warm my hands and feet when a woman walking out dropped her money beside me those were hard etc i never stole a womans money before but i saw no one was looking so i picked it off the floor and i peeled myself off twenty and i peeled off twenty more and i threw the rest on the ground and i legged it out the door those were etc i bought my wife a hat and gloves and a chicken with the change and i went home and i told her things would never be the same again cos things just are the way they are and theres no one to blame i was doing what i had to do ill never feel ashamed of those hard years etc
Track Name: national velvet underground
starring elizabeth taylor as velvet brown in the national velvet underground but once a month like some familly curse that just makes her feel even worse shes fit to be tied and shes dressed to kill and shes ready for her close up now mr de mille but she wakes up scared like shes gonna die and the worlds gonna end and she doesnt know why she cant rely on her friends as they herd the beast back into a crate on the truck she makes her plucky escape and the farmer comes chasing her down the hill and shes ready for her close up now mr de mille shes the prime of miss jeanie shrimpton barbarella does saint trinians im losing track of where the context ends and she begins but if she said it then she meant it sometimes i invent an argument so i can watch her win it like elizabeth taylor as velvet brown in the national velvet underground as she clears the last fence she gives me a little wave and the handsome young doctor braveley tries to save her life and discovers undeniable signs that the principal boy was a girl all the time she pulls herself to her elbows by a supreme act of will and shes ready for her close up now mr de mille
Track Name: one more shot
i cant help myself i was born to go for broke if i dont get this off my chest im going to choke and i know when i throw myself at you im sure to miss but i want one more chance one more kiss one more shot of your love i cant help myself whenever youre around i know theres one or two people in this town who think i should resist theyve seen a better man than me brought down but i want one more chance one more kiss one more shot of your love i cant help myself my hands inside your skirt your hands inside my shirt your mouths like hot blood pulling me down my head starts to sing and the room its starts to dance and I want one more chance one more kiss one more shot of your love
Track Name: you just cant let things go
in the super market just last week a kid pulled a knife on me i said for gods sake im sixty eight years old he had eyes like a cats i never saw nothing look so cold three weeks back just outside town our car broke down at the side of the road three young men laughed as my wife tried to start it again and i pushed and sweated and pushed and cursed and pushed until i thought my heart would burst and i would not let it go you just cant let things go i just cant let things go you see people talk about freedom but im a hard man to convince i was born pushing ive been pushing ever since ive been pushing ever since and im going to push and push until i push that car right over the hill you just cant let things go i just cant let things go last week our daughter came home and told me she was going to have a baby of her own when i asked her who the daddy was she said she didnt know i said thats some father you dont even know last night as we lay in bed my wife turned to me and said just when you think youve reached the end you find yourself having to push again and we said nothing as we lay side by side i just held her hand as she cried and cried and would not let it go you just cant let things go i just cant let things go you see people talk about freedom but Im a hard man to convince i was born pushing ive been pushing ever since ive been pushing ever since and im going to push and push until i push that car right over the hill you just cant let things go i just cant let things go
Track Name: your daddy's name
ive got a barrel of beer inside me and i dont mean american beer and its making me feel crazy its making me think crazy things like I want to kill your daddy shoot him with my brothers gun im going to kill your daddy baby does that turn you on im going to kill your daddy so i can be your man again and the boys in the bar are winding me up they think the whole things just a laugh but the morning papers are going to show your daddys name and my photograph i walk up the road to my house upstairs to my brothers room there underneath the bed is that old german pistol exactly like my brother said i check the mechanism the mechanisms working fine he showed me how to use it in the woods one time i walk down the road to your house in the back door up the stairs i walk past your sister on her knees she fell asleep as she was saying her prayers i walk in the door of your room where ive been so many times and Im just watching you sleeping pretty girl you look so fine i just want to make you mine so i can be with you all the time i just want to be your man but that dont suit your daddys plan then i notice something on the table by the bed and then i notice something on the pillow by your head then i think of something that just makes me laugh and laugh i take the pen and i write your daddys name on my photograph and i take a bullet from the gun and i go into your daddys room he lays sleeping on the bed and i lay that bullet at his head and i dont wake him from his sleep i lay that photo at his feet and every time i think about him waking up i just laugh and every time thinks about him waking up and seeing his name on my photograph your daddys name on my photograph so i didnt kill your daddy but baby i dont mind cos that old buzzard he knows i can take him anytime and all the way home when i think about it i just laugh and laugh
Track Name: all that i am
all that i am (is all that shes got) shes got a crippling illness and I dont want top let her down so I say Im working late and I keep a woman across town god knows Im doing the best that I can but Im only a man god knows i wish i was more but im not and all that i am is all that shes got all i am is all shes got last night we stayed up and talked until late and when we went to bed she told me i shouldnt hate or blame myself when she was dead i know friends youll judge me hard because im as weak as she is pure but if i can take the look in her eyes then i can take the look in yours
Track Name: the high and lonesome life
well im not so drunk that I cant see what your friends all think of me but youre sweet and vulnerable and free and it has always seemed to me that three out of three aint bad ive been living the high and lonesome life ive got nobody ive got no rights and i dont want to see the light i just want a girl to put me right through the night tonight well i cant promise anything you wont forget in time ive got no axe left to grind theres no mountain left to climb but your smile seems so sad ive been living etc theres a blanket on your sisters floor thats where we wake up tired and sore and try to even up the score of good times that weve had ive been living etc she learned her bitter lesson well i took the time to teach her right shell be out again tonight dancing for the band
Track Name: rock to roll
ive got a rock to roll im going roll it up that hill ive got a rock to roll im going to roll it until its rolled so smooth i just breathe and it moves beyond all love beyond control ive got a rock to roll roll roll all day and when the day is done only the stars will know what i have become rock and roll the soul in my stone the stone in my soul ive got a rock to roll roll the burning sun the singing bird theyre only true theyre only words the bird stops its song when the sun no longer shines you take it with you or you leave it behind ive got a rock to roll roll